I'm currently trying to put James to bed....this can sometimes take an hour and is probably the most stressful part of my day!
Being a mum is amazing, but it's not what I expected! I looked at stay-at-home mums and thought 'what do you mean you don't have time, you have all the time in the world'. How fricking naive I was!!
I know James is an easy, happy baby....He doesn't cry much. He smiles a lot. But he is still bloody hard work... Sometimes we just need someone to sympathise and say 'yeah it is hard!' Babies are inquisitive little beings so you can't take your eyes off them for a second before they've got themselves into trouble. For us, nothing much can be done while he's awake unless I want my house wrecked and baby injured!
Looking after a baby is mentally, physically and emotionally draining... I feel like, as mums (and dads) we have so much to live up to now. We're expected to make money, keep the house clean, take the baby to classes, cook home-made meals, plan amazing activities, and this is all off of very little sleep....it's just not realistic!
I constantly have to remind myself that everyone has different priorities. You may look at another mum and think 'she's doing it all', but her house might be a state! And that mum who has an immaculate house, probably isn't able to get out as much. We only have a certain amount of time in the day and we can't do it all!
All you can do is your best, and remember to take time to relax and switch off! Because as the clichéd saying goes 'A happy mummy = A happy baby!'.
But, as hard as it all is, I wouldn't change anything; I love James' determined, cheeky personality! He's made me a better person, because I've had to become more selfless, organise my life more and stop procrastinating!
And no matter how difficult he is to get to sleep, at some point he will be sleeping through the night and needing me less....and I'll be reminiscing about these moments, wishing I could relive them!